Disgusting. Shlon titjara' itsawee shay chithee? 3aib. ma tist7ee? It's not that she hung out with a boy, It's that she kissed him. wain ga3deen? I know farah and deema saw her but didn't say a word. They kept glancing at each other and didn't find the right words to say.
Rija3na il chalet and we sat outside in balcony while watching all my cousins and uncles BBQ'ing. I saw a tall figure coming from behind as I watched the shadow came closer and closer.
Until I realized it was Haya, she sat in a corner next to farah. Farah was sitting next to me. I was bored so I checked my ask.fm. I got question, hate talks and rare compliments.
you're so nice and genuine.
you make me sick. disgusting person.
I heard you were a bad person to be friends with!:o
really pretty but you use it for advantage:p
WTF are you friends w/ Farah! bitkharbch. I showed it to farah
"Haters keep on hatin' 'cause they're jelouuus plus intay mikhtarba when I met you" I laughed at her respond. Etha ana Lu ta'athart wayeed. The thing is my friends are so care-free. They easily forgive and forget about the past. The look at life positively and they think every day is a new day.
On the other side I am bipolar and I'm always depressed and lonely. I don't easily forgive except rarely for the people I know the best. Never have I been positive. I always look at the down side of things.
Then one question popped up and it was asked one minute ago.
yal slut. Laysh short hal gi9r? I read the "question", I looked up and Haya gave me that evil smirk of hers. I wasn't going to say anything about what I saw bs yabeta 7ag nafsha. For a moment I had this weird adrenaline rush. It was unlike me.
When someone jokes or stays anonymous while talking about my insecurities and I have to act like it doesn't bother me. Well It does and I'm sick of people talking about the things I wear or what I say or If I've lost or gained weight
I went and sat on haya's other side and whispered in her ears "ana il slut ha? yalee matisti7een 3ala wayhch itgouleely slut and how Ironic is it that you've just been kissing a guy out in the open desert" I said and sat back in my seat and she stomped away furiously.
"shnu gelteelaha" Deema asked me curiously and farah turned to face me to hear my answer. I showed them the question and told them what I told her.
"slut ib3ainha, how Ironic is it that the only slut in the room is her?" Farah said bursting with anger.
A bunch of my cousins walked in and with them Bader.
"salaam 3alaikum" They all said "wa3alaikum il salaam"
All the guys faces were glued to their phones, I was just watching them. So bored waiting for my food.
All the guys and the girls were smiling at their phone screens. Its obviously a joke that was broadcasted or tweeted. Until bader's face changed completely from smiling to furious. Shfeeh?
Yasmeen: shfeek?
Bader: madree shfeeny! intay gooleely?
Yasmeen: shnu ga9dik? ish9ayer?
Bader: maku shay tabeen itgooleely?
Yasmeen: nothing in particular.
Bader: Mhhm.. okay
Yasmeen: shfeek im3a9b?
Bader: mu im3a9b min gal?
Yasmeen: faj'a gilab wayhik
Bader: mu lazim akoum mistanis all the time.
Yasmeen: okay I didn't know what else to say.
Bader: ok?
Yasmeen: tell me what's bothering you, meet me 3ind the old tree jidam in 10.
Bader: okay.
"shfeech?" Farah asked me
"wala shay" I said not wanting anyone to know what's wrong I showed her my phone. I left the balcony and went out front standing next to the old tree.
So many memories here and I remembered when we had the swings out here but now they're old and rusty. I cracked my leg once and I still had a long scar, not visible but I can feel it.
I waited..
5 minutes...
10 minutes..
He didn't show up.
15 minutes..
20 minutes..
I saw a tall figure coming closer
"Akheeran sharaftna" I yelled out to him.
"mnu tan6ireen?" the voice yelled back.
It wasn't Bader, It was ....
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