Welcome to reality- Chapter 27:

I've been getting a lot more texts from the unknown number about my private life, 7aail e5tera3t.


One Thursday we were all having a movie night at sherifa's house. We were sitting in her basement on the floor figuring out what movie we should pick while Deema was on the phone with the guys from baking tray asking him why out order was 2 minutes late:/ 9j etfashel-.-


"abaay fe a7ad unknown number ga3d edizly creepy texts o eb the last text kan mobd3. Wait 5aloony a6le3 my phone agralikum eyaa" I took out my phone.


"awal shay gal 'keef il 7al ya 7elwa? I was hoping to go out with you or I'll tell everyone something private about you ba3dain 7a6 smiley face almohalab @ 6 thursday the 18th ya3nee elyoum chan egoul adree 3indch plans bes cancel I'm worth it eshyabee hathe" I said and suddenly everyone burst out in laughter


"yal bugar" I said finally realizing that they pulled a prank on me.


"yal 9aaaaaaidaa" Farah said & she and sula high-fived which was weird because I knew they hated each other. wow.


ba3d litrelly 10 minutes they stopped laughing


I ate soooo much that day mcdonals/ johnny rockets/ cookies/ brownies/ ice-cream ma buga shay ma kalaina. I felt so fat:(


reja3t el bait, wela kil 5alaty o 5alee mowjooden.


"hallah bel zaain killaah wel jamaal killa" 5alti ghalia said, she's 24 years old and recently engaged and she just finished college and is a doctor.


"haha, mashkouraa wallah ma7ad ajmal minch o 9adgeeny" I said with a smile


She's my role model, achieved her dream job and is getting married to her dream man and is going to live in a huge house with a pool. I've always imagined my future to be somewhat like hers.


"hallaa yasmeen, 3asach ib khair?" 5alee ahmad, the youngest out of my mother's family and is also considered "the rebel" of our family, he's 23, he's always been the funny one.


"7amdella ib khair" I replied


He talks to me about his favorite books and how I should get better grades and every time he inspires me because he's studying in london and he's always that deep and open-minded about things I go through.


"halla bel 7elwa" 5alti so3aad, my 32 year old aunt said. you know when there's always that one family member you've never really connected with? yeah that's my aunt.


"hala 5alti so3aad" I said back


 Although she tries, sometimes she's mean but don't get me wrong she's my aunt and I love her to death but we just don't talk. we don't have that aunt/ niece relationship that I have with my other aunt and uncle. But I love them all.


o salam 3ala umy o 7abait'ha 3ala ras'ha and I started talking with my family. I haven't seen them in weeks!


"ha, yasmeen shlon madrisa?" 5alee ahmad asked


"zaina el7amdella" I said with a sigh


"etha tabeeny asa3dch goleely ha?" He said with a smile


"laish ballah 3alashan a9g6?" I said and they all laughed


"yasmeeno" 5alti ghalia said, she knows I hate it when people call me that bs 6awaft'ha.


"hala?" I asked


"m7lawa yal kabla" She said, you see why? she is the kind of person that would start and end a conversation with a compliment.


"haha, mashkouuura" I said with the biggest smile


"bs matnanaa! laish?" 5alti so3aad said, I know kanat ga3da et6aferny bs I'm too sensitive.


I swallowed my tears and said "laa 7asafaa"


After an hour of chatting with my aunts, my uncle and my mother about my day/school/life/books I've read I went to my room. I re-activated ask.fm and I tweeted my link because I was bored.


My questions started rolling in.. Allah yaster I thought.


tra uve gtten fat ;$


I love you!


yal ga*ba


I bet when you look at your self in the mirror you see A pretty person but everyone see's someone FATT!


You eat sooo much! ana ma akel hal kither


I went into the bathroom to wash off my eyeliner, then I remembered a book I read about a fat girl that people call on her and through out the summer she would starve her self and make her self throw up but she lost 20 pounds.


I wish I could loose 20 pounds, I wonder If it works trying to make yourself throw up.


















So I tried it, I felt dizzy after but I felt so good. That feeling when you think you're finally getting thinner. finally.