Welcome to reality- Chapter 23:

Before I start the chapter I've been told by my friends that their younger sisters (9-12) have been reading my blog. Ana ma an9a7kum ina you do. The things I did were wrong o ana 9ara7atan ma afte5er ib ely sawaita bes ba'3ait agolokum hal sha'3la o ana ma ag9b ay a7ad 3ala ay shay bes hathe bes na9ee7a meny. Lawsama7tow e5thoha hal na9ee7a.






Just the sound of the alarm in the morning indicating that there's school instantly gave me a headache. I thought about hitting the snooze button one more time but I was already late. Not that I cared but my mother's going to flip out if she wakes up and realizes that i'm here and not in school..


Knowing by the time I reached school first period would be over. Knowing mr.simms would throw a fit next time he sees me but whatever. I went over to my shoe closet I took out a packet from my locked drawer. Right as I arrived Farah bbm'ed me


Farah: staying at the gym for second and third period, join?  She's been ditching all the time now that her parents are getting a divorce.


Yasmeen: ok, 10.


I came into school without singing my name. Our secretary likes me so she said nothing. I saw The principal and she smiled at me and I smiled back. 9ayda I thought masaw3ibat that I was heading towars the old gym.


I entered the the old gym and dropped my bag next to farah. I took out my pack and took out one.


"3endch wala3a?" I asked her, she just looked at me with a smirk as I sat next to her and handed me a lighter.


She knew that weed was off limits and she's not smoking weed anymore, that's good enough for now and I can't tell her to stop smoking zigayer because I would be the biggest hypocrite alive.


I got a bbm from him, bader.


Bader: shlon el 7elwa elyoum.


I blushed and I can see Farah wiggling her eyebrows at me and I laughed.


Yasmeen: zaina, you?


This has been happening everyday since that day at the chalet. That's what I call magic.


Bader: dam ena wardity (referring to my name as in the flower) zaina shlon ana ma akoun zain? 


Yasmeen: wai3 dudee, wtf? shno ism warda I sound like an old lady!


Bader: LOOOL A very lovely one, yalla pay attention in class. 


He always was the smart one out, Everyone thinks that he would turn out to be a Doctor or something. I never thought I could be one. Even though It was my dream no one ever believed in me but he did. He always told me "etha you don't believe in yourself, you'll never achieve anything in your life" Then I'd make fun of him for sounding like justin bieber (no offence to his fans).


I instantly thought of "what Bader would think?" He wouldn't like it and he'd would have wanted me to be a better person but after the hate I get on ask.fm I can't take it anymore.


I smoked one.


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five.



I never smoked this much but I felt okay. A little dizzy but fine, I had biology next period I can't miss that.







I stood up and the last thing I remembered was my body thudding against the wooden floor of the school gym and farah calling my name begging me to wake up.