Welcome to reality- Chapter 32:

The buzz of my phone vibrating on my bedside table woke me up. I hate this. I turned over my phone to see who it is


"deema" I said with an irritated tone


"tyeen ma3ay?" Deema asked


"7lfay ga3adteeny men el noum 3alashan tes2leen! tadreen ena bagoul ee" I said


"Okayy" She said


"wain?" I said


"riding" She said


"La'" I said, no way Khaled might be there.


"Is this about khaled? You've seen him there a million times after your thing" She said, Oh shit I didn't tell her.


"9aar shay" I whispered


"shnuuu?" She said partly enthusiastic and surprised.


"He Dm'ed me o gal e7ibny" I said and turning my head to the right making sure my door was closed.


"CHATHABA!!!" she screamed


"ba6atay athouny" I said loudly


"o ba3dain?" she said


"7igarta" I said


"face him" She said


"entay bes tabeen a7ad erou7 ma3ach" I said


She laughed "bayeelch ba3ad 10 minutes"


I rolled my eyes "ya3nee nu9 sa3a"


"chubb" She said and hung up the phone. I stayed in my bed 10 minutes looking though pictures on instagram and reading my timeline.


I went downstairs and ate breakfast with my family. We talked about my brothers. My dad left for the 9alat, then me, Remas and my mother started talking about this relative that just got divorced then it continues the 7ash(gossip) I asked my mother if I can go and she said okay and I excused myself from the table.


I changed into shorts and a shirt. In 20 minutes Deema came, yat salimat 3ala ahalee and we left. She's like a part of the family. My parents know her so well that they'd let me stay with her all day and when I want to go out and they'd say no I'd tell them Deema betyee o yir'9oun 3ala 6oul.


In the car we were silent. When you're comfortable with a person nothing is awkward even silence but then her driver started chatting with me asking about my driver. Even our drivers are friends. I love Deema's driver. On my birthday He'd always bring me coffee from starbucks, It's like his "gift".


I saw him, He had a riding lesson. I was watching deema ride and I sat on a bench. After his lesson khaled came and sat next to me.


"Shnu tabee?" I asked focusing on my twitter timeline


"ha shitgoleen?" He said


"shnu agool? Ana agoul enta 7maar tabee kil el banaat e7ibounik o enta etgi9 3alaihum eb kalamik" I said, I was surprised at myself. I guess it was the disclosure. He was even taken back, smiled a little. God, I hate him.


"o what about 3aysha? bel 6agag?" I asked


"um, no. I really do love her and I really do love you too" He said, WHAT??


"maynoun?" Right at when I said that Deema waved indicating that she finished her lesson and I walked away from him. How can someone love two people? Is he crazy?


I have no idea what he was thinking, like anyone would agree to this and he doesn't know me and bader are together so that explains a lot but not what goes on in that devious mind of his.

Welcome to reality- Chapter 31:

Breath-taking. I watched her coming down the marble stairs. She was the vision of a perfect Disney princess. A long red dress stitched with white roses and it was strap-less.


We got that dress a couple of weeks ago when we were roaming the halls of 9al7iya looking for a perfect milcha dress. Once we saw it, we knew it screamed perfection on her. she told me the day after that she only got that dress because she knew I loved white roses.


"How do I look?" She asked. Like she already didn't know how beautiful she was.


"A princess" I said. Not able to take my eyes of her. I envied how pretty she was but because she's my sister I also tell her what I feel.


"I can't believe you're leaving, al7een mnu enagy ehdoomy?" I said teasingly


Instead of mocking me she yanked me in for a long soul-crushing hug. Tears filled my eyes. This was way too emotional.


As time passed and people started filling in our ball room and my father called o ektibow el kitaab. My grandmother gave her a beautiful gift it was a ruby brioche that was her mother's (my mother's grandmother).


After everyone was gone, Remas changed and left ma3a 5a6eeb'ha to a restaurant. All my cousins and my aunts and uncles came over. I showed my cousins to the game room.


In my family we had this tradition, that after every birthday/wedding/milcha/eid ect we would all sleepover at the person's celebration house with parental supervision of course.


The girls in one room and the guys in another but we'd stay together until everyone went to sleep. It's kind of weird but fun. On eid we'd sleepover at my grandmother's house. That was the best.


Every one was there including Bader. I was wearing a short dress but I covered my bare shoulders with my shawl.


I entered my room and I changed into comfy free city sweat pants and a plain white Abercombie shirt after I removed my make up and grabbed my phone. I got whatapps from aysha.



3awash: Yasmeen I'm sorry.


3awash: Yasmeen I would've told you but we weren't close anymore.


3awash: yasmeen mabrook


3awash: yasmeen jawbay my calls


3awash: Yasmeen wallah I love him latfakreen '3ala6


3awash: I love you. 


It hit me, I totally forgot about them.


Yasmeen: akalmch ba3dain, love you too:*



I went into the game room, as my mother calls it where all my cousins are. I sat on a bean bag that was next to bader's conveniently that was the only place left.


He was playing play station. I don't even know why we bought that thing. Kan mindimij. There's something so beautiful about someone when they're indulged in something. Magical.


 He caught me starring at him and I looked away. I felt his devilish smile covering his flawless face. I think when you love someone their imperfections become perfect and I thought what did I do to deserve such an amazing person to love me this much?


To distract myself from this intense moment I took out my phone and tweeted my ask link. I logged into ask and I saw that I had a couple of usual questions about my family name.


then at the end of the list I saw a question from 2 days ago the same day that I saw khaled and 3aysha together and it said:


yasmeen I need to talk to you follow me so I can DM you @KhalidAlSomething


Wtf? What is wrong with him? Doesn't he know how much 3aysha loves him? I swear if he breaks her heart I will kill him. I thought about if for a long time. I'm going to follow him, see what he has to say and then unfollow him.


As if on cue as soon as I hit the follow button, bader asked "ha shitsaween?" I shivered and I think he noticed


"bs ga3da ajaweb 3ala questions on ask" I said casually


"shegoloon? etha sab o hwaaash latjawbeen haa" He said


"laa bs yes2eloon 3an my family o shnu esm ahal omee o chithee El ligafa o shitsawee" I said and he smiled.


"Agool 3ad towmisa3 chinich kintay sar7ana eb jamaly?" He teased with a wink.


"chuub 3aad lat9deg nafsk wayed" I said in a dagra tone


"afaaa?" He teased and I smiled


"enzain a6lb mnich 6alab?" He said in a serious tone which is unlike him


"sure, shtabee?" I asked


"shtabee? tathkireen el ayam el 7elwa ele kintay laman a6lb shay minich radich ekoon 'e3yunee lik yal 7lu'?" He said teasing again, now that's the bader I know


"wela 3umree gilt hal kalam" I said with a raised eyebrow


"kanat ayam 7elwa wallah" He said and I rolled my eyes


"enzain abee achouf your phone?" He said


"what? why?" I asked


"shfeech? its like you just saw a ghost bs abee at6aman" He said


"umm.. ok bs not pictures fe banat mu labseen e7jab and no dm's" I said


"I promise" He said. When I look into his eyes I feel like there's something drawing me closer to him. I needed him in my life now. He was a part of me. Even though I've always been the kind of girl to say "el rayal juz2 mn 7ayatch mu kil 7ayatch" but things have changed.


And Bader kept his promise looking only through the bbm contact list and the whatsapp list. When I took my phone from him our fingers brushed and I moved my hand even though he didn't. What is wrong with me? I have never been so intense this much with bader.


I checked my phone and Bader went over to join my other cousins. They were playing truth or dare.


I heard one of my cousins say "yallah ya Bader, truth or dare?" Fahad my naive 15 year old cousin said


"truth" Bader said


"et7b?" said my 19 year old cousin, 7essah, Haya's sister. Unlike haya, 7essa's the best.


"ee wallah ya 7e9ah a7b o ma5tha galbee killah" He said and 7essah winked at me when no one was looking. Every one can feel it. Everyone knows it deep inside that he loves me but at the time I just couldn't believe it.


I was happy. Then my phone vibrated indicating that I had a DM. It was khaled.


khalid: heyy


Yasmeen: Ana mu emsawyatlik follow 3alashan asoulf .What do you want?


Khalid: ulaa karhatnee ba3ad?, I won't hurt 3aysha if thats what you mean..


Yasmeen: 5ale9ny gool eli tabee etgoula.


That's when all my happiness disappeared.






Khalid: Yasmeen I still love you..

Welcome to reality- Chapter 30:

I think you could say this chapter is.. a bit different but other than that enjoy!

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Flipping over the test realizing that I have half a page left and a bonus question. Since it was multiple choice and it was easy I finished 10 minutes before the bell rings. 

As I handed in my test I took out a blank sheet of paper and a pencil writing my endless list of home works I needed to do over the extended weekend. 

Since parent-teacher days are tomorrow and the day after we don't need to go to school for Wednesday and Thursday. My parents don't go anyways so I have the days off.

The bell rang and I was the first to leave the class room, I couldn't be more relieved. I breathed out, never really realizing that I held my breath. 

I approached Aysha, one of my friend's, lockers. She was reading something and obviously distracted.

"3awash" I said, she just nodded her head.

"I know you know ina esmch 3aysha bs reday 3alay" She just smiled at me. I remember when she used to tell me every thing. The good old days. I peeked into her locker and she was reading a letter.

I took it from her and ran away. I am such a child and bipolar. Yesterday I was deep i depression and now I'm acting like a kid. 

"yasmeen" 3aysha yelled out which was weird because she's one of the shy ones that like to blend in not shine out.

"yasmeena, yallah 3ad" She said loudly. I gave up not because I can't run away from her which I can but because I respected her secrets.

She gave me an evil look, she started walking away when i called out "hey, 3awash benrou7 360 elyoum yayah?" I said, She's been kind of distant lately. It's like we haven't hung out in ages!


"laa elyoum I promised ena ba6la3 ma3a ahaly" She said while looking at the ground, it looks like she really wanted to come.


"akeed?" I asked again, She nodded her head.


She walked away, I've known her for such a long time. I know there's something bothering her. I also know her well enough to also know that if people ask her what's wrong bet3a9eb o etsawee filim hindi.


I left campus, we have lunch at my grandmother's every Thursday. I hoped to see bader.


while I was in the car I BBM'ed him.


Yasmeen: hey, betyee elyoum? :p


Bader: no, 3endee a lesson 


Yasmeen: ohh, okay :(


Bader: laish za3lana? la'ana ma ra7 etchoufeen 7abeebch? ;)


Yasmeen: god, bader you're such a dreamer.cheesyy=))


Bader: shnu el ensan doesn't hope ena 7abeebta misses him:(


Yasmeen: have fun at your lesson "7abeeby" :p


Bader: now you're making fun of me-.-


Yasmeen: laaaaaa, kilish! men gal?


Bader: et9adgeen 3ala how mean you act, My love for you is so deep that the ocean would be jealous.


I blushed, at que I arrived at my grandmother's house. In my school uniform hoping my nanny didn't bring the oldest thing in my closet.


I said hi to everyone and we all ate lunch, thankfully my nanny brought me shorts and an Abercrombie shirt. It's more like something I would wear at the chalet but I didn't say anything.


Sula picked me up at 5 and because she was too lazy to go all the way to yarmouk to get my clothes. She let me borrow a cute dress of hers. And we stayed at her place for like an hour and a half playing truth or dare


"okay truth" I said, She nodded eagerly.


"shfeeha 3awash?" I asked, Sula and awasha are now really close.


"oh, look its 7:30 ta'a5arna" She said trying to change the subject.


"goolay" I said while standing up


"ok, she's with a guy and she's finally happy that's all i can say" She said, and I smiled even though I know it's wrong I was happy for her.


When we finally got to 360 Deema & Farah were shopping. It's nice to see that they were bonding.


"yalla 5anrou7, mshtahya B + F" Farah said.


We made our way down passing CR and something caught my eye.





It was khaled.





holding hands with 3aysha.